Calm after the storm

Stormy weather
Does it mean something?
Does it mean things will get better?

As my ears catch the sound of thunder,
closing my eyes to hear the acoustic music.
The playlist of the night we met.
We should be dancing in this rain,
now all I do is wonder.

I should be standing still in this rain.
I should be outside
without feeling this pain.
You should be here
with me.

There are many ‘should’.
But the word that fits more
is would.
Would you leave again?
Would you stay only because you’re lonely?
Wouldn’t you be my one and only?

The sad part comes
as I realise I am aware of the truth.
No would is good enough
to waste away my youth.
No should is taking place.

Now it’s my turn to be tough.
but loving at the same time.
Loving myself is a great job
and it’s full-time.

Now I wonder no more of us.
I wander in the rain
and realise it’s not that plain.

No sun is coming anytime soon
but I’ll let the stars lead me
I might follow moon.
For the better nights
with many different lights
that will turn this into greater days.

(inspired by this playlist on spotify + some acoustic music)